purging

....and the purging has begun. It's weird to be going through our house without a clear destination in mind. I'm trying to purge as if we won't be here next year. It makes it clear cut and simple, however I also feel like a fraud. I think that comes in part due to the fact that Kimi and I have been saying for years... "no, really...we are LEAVING this year" and then another year comes and goes and we're still here. Collecting more stuff

But this year it feels different. Applications are definitively in (pending two more personal references, but we've done our part). we have a pretty clear idea of where we want to be (Kimi - Japan, Me - if it must be japan then okinawa, Japan...yes I'm praying for specifics), and he going to a job conference in a month (gulp). All of a sudden the leaving part seems like a done deal. As in...I could be on a plane this summer headed to a country where I don't speak the language, or even recognize the letters.

Most days I feel a false peace about it all. I think that stems from the fact that deep down inside I feel like it's impossible for us to leave. SO many things have to fall into place (mainly job, house). They often feel like insurmountable hurdles and I feel a peace in thinking that "well, at least we really did try this time and it didn't work out". But deeper still I really do feel the pull to move. Why, I honestly don't know. Maybe it's time? Maybe the grass is appearing slightly greener on the other side? (trust me I know it isn't). Maybe I'm ready for an adventure? I honestly don't know.

....but we were talking about purging. and that I have to say, is something I really enjoy doing. So whether we are here or there next year, we will be traveling lighter.