exhaustion

I keep meaning to sit down and actually process the crazy stage of life that we are in right now. I remember the last time that I was this tired. It was after having a baby. I feel the same bone weary exhaustion. We're all struggling with a cough which means that I've been up again at random hours because either I"m coughing, my kids are coughing or Kimi's coughing.

All that to say that there is no space left "to process". It's one day at a time. It's really never ending. I told kimi the other day that I can't see a time in the near future for me to actually fully unwind. Maybe hawaii?? I don't know. I keep thinking that after the next thing is done I'll be able to let my guard down. We have an offer on the house for which I am so so so thankful and so totally see as God's work. But turns out this is the beginning. What ensues is inspections, taking pictures of items to sell on Craigslist, meeting people to sell items on craigslist, finding a short term housing solution, trying to sell our cat, packing again, moving to our short term housing, looking at all job options in Kigali, trying to figure out the logistics of our move there (do we stop over in europe? Do we ship our items or pack them? What should we take?), and finally after a 24 hour plane trip of getting there being hit with a new culture, new life, no friends etc...

 so yes, i'll be relaxing a year from now. I realize that this sounds very whiny and it actually isn't meant to be. I'm just so incredibly tired. I am also so incredibly thankful for this process, for how smooth is is going all things considered and for awesome support. I'm posting these random pics because they make me happy and because they were taken recently